It doesn't matter what I do, I am losing in this game of dating.  Not attentive enough.. lose.  Too attentive...lose! or to quote the latest asshole "overbearing".    Yay me.  I guess there needs to be a balance .. both parties interested in the other party equally.  Well, that is easier said than done as experience as shown me.

Let's take a look at the latest Asshole.  He even said "I don't have much to offer".  Didn't bother me because at the end of the day if you make me laugh and blush (not necessarily in that order) .. I am all yours.  As I type this I clearly see my mistake...I shouldn't give my all to anyone so quickly.  I should mention that I AM GULLIBLE.  Not just with men...in general.  I believe it all.  

So,  current asshole..well he's not current anymore since I am "overbearing",  made me laugh and smile like really no one in a long time.   So we dated a bit (had sex) and then he seemed to pull away.  He convinced that having sex would change nothing we were working on. "Nothing is going change"  Yeah ... ok.    Talking on the phone ceased and I was left to my own neurotic interpretations of his texts.  Fucking christ... texts should die.   Yes bitter...if that was not clear by now.   So the day when I had enough the psycho texts began.  The more he didn't answer the more pissed I got.   At the end of the day .. got a call from his brother.   He is the fucking hospital.  I, of course, was shocked and concerned and felt like a major d-bag.    To make this lame post short... he finally called.  We chatted.. I apologized.   "There's no need to say anything"  I figured his words meant he understood.  The next day I mentioned hanging out and was spit on verbally ...oh via text that is.   I am inconsiderate he said.  I don't care about anyone but myself and he told me he could never date anyone "like me".   Now I am the asshole in this game, but not for long.   A month ...and a half or so ...he as back.  And he missed me.   BULLLLLLLSHHHHHIIIITTTT.   Need a beer...more later.